Let that shit go
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Do I acknowledge I haven’t written you in a long time (aside from a couple of weeks ago) or do I just dive in?
I have so much to say about why I haven’t written in a while but it’s mostly boring (I have a two-year-old and a job and I was out of the habit and then became indecisive, etc.). See, it’s boring.
I’ve had a lot of shame about not doing more personal projects/creative stuff/newsletters in the last year. I’m constantly comparing myself to other artists (especially artists who also have young kids). I’ve felt bad because I taught a COURSE about getting unstuck and staying creative (in my defense, it is hard to take your own advice) so I have felt like a fraud. I felt like I couldn’t reemerge until I had my shit together. It’s all so dramatic and yes, I realize nobody cares. (I mean this in the we’re-all-just-concerned-about-ourselves way and not the self-loathing way).
I’m letting all that shit go. Or rather, I’m working on it.
Things are not as they were. My lifestyle is different than it was a few years ago. Instead of chasing what once was, I have warmed up to what is. And with that reality check, I am BACK, BABY!
Let’s let that old shit go.
A question for you: What routine/process/lifestyle are you chasing that isn’t fun/realistic/edifying to you anymore?
:)
Becky
I've been chasing the idea of making my own courses and expanding it into creating my own business, but I have a full-time job a house under construction and now I'm 3 months pregnant. I continue to dream with this goal which now sounds unrealistic and having a baby coming feels like an expiration date for my dreams. Don't get me wrong, I'm VERY excited for it, but it's already hard to create something without having kids, so the idea scares me. I also battle with the feeling of fraud for not believing I can teach what I do. Can't related more to this but not sure how to let that shit go!!
Yay! Happy to hear from you and 10000% relate. I quit everything (design work-wise) when my second kiddo was born and we were away from family and TOTALLY compared myself to the other people I saw posting 1% of their life online but seemingly doing the kid thing and the art thing and the having all the shit together thing. Haha! It's easier to see that we all have different capacities/help/etc. when the hormones are back to somewhat normal after baby days, right!?